Circle of Life

Lately I've been asking myself many things. Mostly things about my life now that I am almost certain of where I would be 10, 15 years or more from now.

Retired in the same place where I started. Perhaps in the dust. Alone. Definitely!

I asked why is there a need for someone, for anyone, to get married, become a parent and deal with spouse, kids, family, not enough toilet-paper, never-ending bills, legal issues...when living alone is a lot easier, more convenient, less worries, less bills, less hyper-tensions...but more toilet-paper to use. :-)

I know family brings happiness to us most of the time but sometimes I wonder if they are all worth the troubles that came along with.

I also know it feels good having someone in your life you can count when needing a shoulder to cry on, or perhaps just to tell each other stories with, make passionate love and waking up in the morning sharing a good brewed coffee now and then. However, is it really necessary to sign a contract so to speak and have them around every minute of our 'effin' day and night?

Are we all afraid to grow old and die alone hence even at the very young age we're all thinking, dreaming, hoping, wishing, making it a mission, determined to get married and have a family of our own? What exactly does having one proves? Is there really a point in all these?

I could understand having someone in life, a spouse or a partner, if that's what you call it nowadays, by our side as we grow old and needy....but kids? We all know they won't be around for long because they will have their own life to live sooner or later, and deal with the same issues I mentioned above. Will the circle of life stops?

Don't get me wrong. I am happy with my life now. The question that I have is, will I NOT be happy if my wife and daughter does not exist in my life, by my side...at all? Could I be happier if they are not around?

I'm just asking. Am I being selfish?

"Carmageddon"

I will be attending a 3-day conference in San Diego starting tomorrow and good thing I will be back before “Carmageddon” occurs this July 16^th and 17^th. Every commuter in this part of Los Angeles is worried about this expected event so forget about driving to LAX airport on these 2 dreadful days.

When Hitler finds out that the 405 freeway, the busiest in the nation, will be closed this weekend to give way to a major road construction, to hopefully ease daily traffic congestion, he is not happy about it. Little did he know in Manila, this shit happens every day without advance notice?

Watch/read his rants below:

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I Really Don't Know...At All!

One of the most iconic artists of her generation, Joni Mitchell’s song proved to be simple yet so inspiring. You’ll appreciate it even more if you pay close attention to the lyrics.

Rows and flows of angel hair, and ice cream castles in the air, and feathered canyons everywhere, I've looked at clouds that way. But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone. So many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now, from up and down, and still somehow it’s clouds’ illusions I recall, I really don't know clouds...at all.

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel, as every fairy tale comes real, I've looked at love that way. But now it's just another show, you leave them laughing when you go. And if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.
I've looked at love from both sides now, from give and take, and still somehow it's love's illusions I recall, I really don't know love...at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say "I love you" right out loud, dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I've looked at life that way. But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say I've changed. Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose, and still somehow it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life...at all.