Lately I've been asking myself many things. Mostly things about my life now that I am almost certain of where I would be 10, 15 years or more from now.
Retired in the same place where I started. Perhaps in the dust.
Alone. Definitely!
I asked why is there a need for someone,
for anyone, to get married, become a parent and deal with spouse, kids, family,
not enough toilet-paper, never-ending bills, legal issues...when living alone is a lot easier, more convenient, less worries, less bills, less hyper-tensions...but more toilet-paper to use. :-)
I know family brings happiness to us most of the time but sometimes I wonder if they are all worth the troubles that came along with.
I also know it feels good having someone in your life you can count when needing a shoulder to cry on, or perhaps just to tell each other stories with, make passionate love and waking up in the morning sharing a good brewed coffee now and then.
However, is it really necessary to sign a contract so to speak and have them around every minute of our
'effin' day and night?
Are we all afraid to grow old and
die alone hence even at the very young age we're all thinking, dreaming, hoping, wishing, making it a mission, determined to get married and have a family of our own? What exactly does having one proves? Is there really a point in all these?
I could understand having someone in life, a spouse or a partner,
if that's what you call it nowadays, by our side as we grow old and needy....but kids? We all know they won't be around for long because they will have their own life to live sooner or later, and deal with the same issues I mentioned above. Will the circle of life stops?
Don't get me wrong. I am happy with my life now. The question that I have is, will I NOT be happy if my wife and daughter does not exist in my life, by my side...at all? Could I be
happier if they are not around?
I'm just asking. Am I being selfish?